fuck my life

last night me and my friends were drinking i never get openly depressed or cry or anything like that but last night idk i just broke down in the bathroom and cried i guess i was in there for a while and my friend came in to check on me and i just cried it was the most embarassing thing ive ever done to myself im not even sure what i said or if i said anything at all i hope i didnt say anything that im going to regret i just want to crawl in ball and die and just for all of this hard stuff to be over for everything to be the way it used to be i just neeeed everything to stop all of my crazy thoughts and feeelings and crying uncontroably i need to be someone else just for a day i need to be happy just for one day